I am struggling. Last night I had the biggest beakdown that I have had in awhile. I suck at life. Rick keeps telling me to quit thinking so negative and think positive and that will change everything, quit letting Satan beat you down and other stuff along those same lines. All that might be true for other people but not me. I really do suck at life and I am failing at every aspect of my life and I can't fix it. And I don't know if I can keep pretending that every is ok. I don't know if I can keep going.